On Turning 41

You probably think this is going to be one of those, “OMG, I just turned a corner and ran right into middle age!” kind of stories. But it isn’t. I passed age 41 a long time ago. And if anyone refers to me as middle aged I’m going to hug them. This is a different tale about a marriage celebrating its 41st birthday, today! Imagine, being married to the same person for four decades, plus one year. Just how long ago was that? Well, there were no cell phones, no personal computers, no laptops, no iPads. The Vietnam war had just ended three years earlier. The Alaskan oil pipeline had just started pumping oil and the Bee Gee’s were hot with Stayin’ Alive.

I was a new engineer, just starting a career five months past graduation and my girlfriend would not marry me until she finished college in May. She had promised her dad that she’d finish school before marrying since one of her sisters had not, and never did finish. So in a small country church we gathered with family and a few friends and had a wedding that could not have cost more than $500, probably considerably less. My fiancé had no diamond engagement ring, she did not want one. We both had $71 plain gold bands for our wedding rings. We had no money, but also no debt. College was pretty inexpensive back then and most families could cash flow the costs without student loans. I had gotten a very good starting offer so I had saved enough the first few months to be debt free.

Early on we rented an inexpensive older apartment, then moved into a house trailer that we bought with payments, it was only $5,000. We then bought our first house after about a year for $32,500. That was the last time we moved. We are still in that house today, for forty years so far. We’ve remodeled, added on and expanded the house nine times over the years. And what was 1440 sq ft then is about 3,000 sq ft now. And it has been paid for at least the last 15 years, I forget exactly when.

So what is life with one person for forty-one years like. In a word, it is nice. It is comfortable. It is strong. You learn each other’s language and you get much better at making each other happy. You can sit together without speaking for an hour without getting nervous or uncomfortable from the silence. And in our case you can recount a thousand tennis matches played, a thousand miles hiked, a thousand miles of distance running and perhaps a thousand fish caught while fishing together. You can count three grown millennial kids making their way through life after a good start in our home. You can count millions in investments and almost as much given away. You can count a dozen cats and dogs that lived their short appointed lives at our place. But the memories of those forty-one years, you cannot possibly count all of those. They simply are vastly more than can be counted.

We have had a few tragedies, as a brother and two nephews died far too young, and as another friend left a too young widow when his corporate plane went down in the trees. We’ve dodged false diagnoses of cancer, heart disease and stroke to remain pretty healthy into our sixties. But we know there are no guarantees going forward and that with each year that we live together our remaining years are one less. I suspect each of us would prefer not to be the one that wins the longevity game since it is very hard to imagine a meaningful life that did not have our other half in it. But of course we would because we have never quit anything and certainly would never quit on life. The last three years we’ve both been retired. And they have been three of our best years. We do more together than most couples because we share the running, hiking, tennis, fishing, skiing, travel and off-roading hobbies that make up most of our recreation. But we also have separate lives, she’s off on a European River Cruise with a girlfriend next week and my hobby jobs take me to other cities frequently, usually without her. But more often than not we spend our time together. It is very fortunate for me that she’s always been my best friend. I can’t imagine spending that much time with anyone else.

She is patient, she is kind and she takes care of people because that is who she is. Whether it is me, our widowed neighbor, the older tennis players that she gets out to play because it is so good for them or anyone she sees in need, she helps without thinking about it. She listens so people who like to talk seek her out and they talk and talk and talk. But she is kind and she is willing to listen, more patient than I would be. She builds, including a good bit of our house, all of our landscaping and outbuildings. She paints and cleans and fixes things. Growing up on a small farm makes you handy, even compared to an engineer like me. I was a legend at work, I never cut the grass, ran the leaf blower or weed eater. I bought her Christmas presents like table saw’s, routers and power washers. Yet she is crafty and can decorate and accessorize the house beautifully. She can sew clothes from scratch and she is an awesome cook. I on the other hand am great at thermodynamics, and not much else.

So is there a secret to staying married for many decades? I’ve wondered that myself. Is it luck, skill or just purely random chance that determines marital success? After much thought I think I know the answer to that question. I think there is a secret. And it is very simple, marry someone like my wife.

What do you think? Are lifetime marriages a thing of the past or still a valid concept?

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Eight Things I Learned in My First Eight Years of Work

Did you ever do the mental exercise of wondering what you would tell a much younger version of yourself if you could go back in time?  Or how about wondering what a younger you would have put in a surprise time capsule for you to open today?  The latter of those two actually happened to me recently!  My wife was digging through her home office file cabinet and found an old manila folder marked “Re-evaluations[Personal]” and “Private”.  And inside was a journal of sorts, written by me over the first eight years of my career.  These were centered around my annual performance reviews, which at my company, included my annual raises.  I also wrote about my feelings each time I received a review.  It was fun taking a journey back through time, of more than three decades of my career.

I’ve always maintained in this blog that I loved my job right up until the end, and while I worked over thirty years at the same place this should put me to the honesty test about the first eight years, at least.  It starts with my first review six months after I started.

After six months:

  I started work six months ago at an initial salary of $18,000.  Today I had a re-evaluation of my salary with a 10% increase in pay to $19,800.  My boss gave me an excellent overall rating.  The one weak area he pointed out was that I needed to come back to him with questions when I was stuck in a vaporous project with no clear path ahead and needed to keep him apprised of my progress more. But overall, I received a lot of praise which rescued me from a bout of bad vibrations I thought my boss had been sending me. Turns out he’s just like that, pretty much a frowner by nature. 

Takeaway No. 1    Don’t imagine the worst, your boss probably thinks you are doing great even if she doesn’t say so every day.  If you aren’t sure, ask her. 

After 1 1/2 years:

One year later, how can a whole year have gone by so fast? Boss gave me an 8.1% raise.  He said little about weak points and was very pleased with my work.  The only areas that he saw that needed to improve were things like needing more experience, which will come naturally in time. He did caution me that my biggest strength, incredible speed at getting things done, sometimes let mistakes slip into my results.  He predicted a good future for me. My thoughts about my job one and a half years in?  I’m lucky to have a great boss, I have a huge opportunity for advancement and I am happy. 

Takeaway No. 2   Having a good boss makes a huge difference in how you feel about your job.

After 2 1/2 years:

I feel conservatively ecstatic. I received the highest rating yet from a boss who does not rate people very highly, normally.  And the series of raises this year are by far the highest I’ve ever gotten, a total of 19.7%!  My boss had zero areas that he felt I needed to improve in, and considering he is pretty tough on most of my peers, that’s impressive.  But my areas I am assigning myself to improve in are: don’t let up, expand my responsibilities, present projects to management in neat, well documented and concise form (my boss loves that!)  Show my ability to work with less supervision, the appearance of ability to self-supervise is important going forward. 

Takeaway No. 3   Don’t just try to meet your manager’s goals, set your own goals too.

After 3 1/2 years:

This has got to be the best evaluation yet!  4 out of 4 average scores from a boss who has rarely given anyone even a single top rating.  I also scored the top of all the engineers at the facility in a new comparative rating system. The annual salary increase is also very good at 25.6%.   I consider it staggering how well I’m being treated by the company! I do communicate the frequent job offers I’m receiving from head hunters and other companies, which I’m not seeking out (they seek me out). My emotional outlook?  Happy and excited about the future.

Takeaway No. 4   When you get other job offers, pass that information on to your manager.  It will give him the ammunition he needs to get you a better raise.

After 4 years:

Yesterday my boss gave me my 4 year review.  I received the max rating again.  I was also given a promotion to Senior Engineer and another excellent raise of 14.5%.  A head hunter/professional recruiter who called after the raise told me I was now priced out of the competitive market for engineers of my experience level.  How do I like my job?  It is great! There is a nice amount of travel, prestige and appreciation.  I do note that the stress and strain are sort of proportional to the success, though. 

Takeaway No. 5   It is normal to feel some stress even if you love your job. After all they do call it work for a reason.

5 years:

I just had my evaluation.  I received an 8% increase which was above the average for the company and for the department. From here on I’m a player in a game with a lot of other people.  My long-term success is no longer dependent on just my boss but on all of upper management.  I have to achieve visible and valuable results for the company on my own.  This coming year the budget is tight and there isn’t much project money so I’ll have to achieve things that I can do without spending very much.  The pressure is on but I think I’ll have some good things to look back on in another year.

Takeaway No. 6   Pleasing your boss is the main thing at first, but it isn’t enough after a while.   Soon you will need to also show your value to all of your upper management team.

Year 6:

Times are tough around the company, there is basically a wage freeze right now.  We’ll go 22 months without an increase.  My evaluation was excellent and while not getting an increase is not fun, I’ve got a lot of company.  Even the head hunters aren’t calling.  How do I feel about my job? Better than last year, and that’s saying a lot because I loved my job a year ago! 

Year 7:

Things are different.  My boss has been out of the picture much of the year on special projects.  I’ve had to basically run the department at times.  The mystery of running an engineering department is gone, it turns out it is actually very easy and my manager has seen I have a knack for doing it well.  I did get a 9% raise so my pay is still competitive. The entire industry is in the doldrums right now so going somewhere else wouldn’t change anything.

Takeaway No. 7   Most business sectors experience regular cycles of prosperity and recession, it doesn’t mean you are in a bad job when it happens.   There is still opportunity to grow in hard times.

Year 8:

First evaluation with the new owners.  My boss is now the new big boss and I was promoted to fill his old job!  The sale of the company to the new guys was very good for both of us.  I received a 9.3% raise on top of last years nine percent increase.  Salary wise things are still good.  My feelings about my job?  I love it! It is what I always wanted.  I’ve got interesting work, influence, good pay, huge office, fun travel and an expert team working for me.  I was very lucky that this sale happened but in truth it wasn’t all luck.  I had to be prepared for a promotion so that when the job came open, they would pick me for it.

Takeaway No. 8   Getting lucky has a lot to do with being prepared for opportunity when it comes out of nowhere.

Although I worked for decades after, I only kept these journals for the first eight years.  What strikes me most was the fact that every time I addressed my outlook or feelings about my job, it was mostly positive.  I did mention stress but not as much as I mentioned being happy. In the interest of historical accuracy,  those double -digit raises I received were partly a result of the crazy double digit inflation that occurred way back then.   Also, a starting pay of $18,000 per year now is not anything to brag about, but at that time it was among the highest offers received by graduates from my university of 12,000 people.  In current dollars that would be about like a starting salary of $70,000.

When my wife found them, I had no idea what my notes from the past would tell me.  Reassuringly, it told me I was the same person I thought I was, the same guy I still am.  I’m no longer dedicated, maybe obsessed, with winning the career game, but I’m still hyper competitive at sports and games.  I’m still someone who keeps score with money but who was never really in love with spending it on things.

In the years after these journal entries, I went on to manage the entire facility and later the corporation which included several other companies. I also lived through another ownership change that again benefited my career.  However, everything important in my career was due to what I learned in those first eight years.  And most of that was due to having a boss and mentor who held me to high standards but also fervently wanted me to succeed.  And it was a great ride, if I could go back in time, I would not change a single thing!

What about you, do you journal about your feelings regarding your job?

If you had to list the one or two things you’ve learned from your first job what would they be?

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